Monday, April 4, 2011

My parents asked me if I would help pay for life insurance for my Dad. My Dads pension goes away when he dies and won't continue for my Mom. All because they wanted more money each month. They had a policy and now something went wrong. Anyway - they won't say an amount I would need to contribute. I'm bitter. I'm pissed. I was quiet. Brad flipped a bit. Made it clear if their is a child in our future then it will be a big fat NO - but think no should be either way. I had a dream that mom was left in the dessert alone. I feel selfish but why is it me and not other siblings? I'm somehow feeling a bit more for families with small families but I was blessed with a large one. I should benifit right? Or Is that selfish?

Brad wants to get me an iPad for my birthday. I keep saying NO.

They are building a new kingdom hall right down the street. I think of her Mom everytime I drive bye.

2 comments:

DRJ said...

get an ipad. i have the first one. i told myself i was getting it for when i'm down there...so i can show my mom how to use it. it was impulsive but i like it a lot.
why do members of your family think you are a bank? do not feel guilty for saying no if you decide to say no.
your mom would not be left alone in the desert. you would take her in if need be and if she put up a fight, you and me would be going on a recon mission to az to drag her back to cali. seriously.
i wish i was there...even though i hear it's getting hot and i would bite someone's face off as i sweat like a whore. i am so unhappy here.

homoerectus said...

I wish you were here too.