Tired

I'm Tired

of trying to be perfect
of wanting things I can't have
of this life and how I lead it
of never standing up for who I am
of living a life I wasn't meant to live
of loving my car and beer more than my life
of needing things
of always seeing the negative things
of faking it at work
of being emotionally void at home just to make my life work
of being someone I'm not
of doing what others expect
of holding myself to an expectation that is unattainable but think it is

I'm tired of trying to grow when he never will..........
I'm tired of me.