Realization

I am realizing that I really can only count on two people to help me when I need help.  That is my husband and my best friend.  My husband and I pride ourselves on being self sufficient.  We rarely ask for help.  When we have, we have been disappointed.  I never like to ask for anything from anybody, but I know I have limits.  This last year has proved so.  I needed help on several levels.  I asked and I received but only by those clostest - those two people.  I used to think my family (not including my husband) would be there no matter what.  I don't think that is true.  I love my family and they are great, but they are family.  If I need help - I don't intend to rely on them.  Although my husband doesn't always help me in the way I want - I always know he is on my team and does the best he can.  He wants whats best.  He wants me happy and healthy - physically, emotionally, and financially.  We both get mutual benefit.  I'm happy - his needs are met.  My family - motives are always questioned.  They love me, but jealously, rivalry, motive, etc. get in the way.

I think I have more to work through on this topic, but the bottom line - I thank those two people from the bottom of my heart.