I am realizing that I really can only count on two people to help me when I need help. That is my husband and my best friend. My husband and I pride ourselves on being self sufficient. We rarely ask for help. When we have, we have been disappointed. I never like to ask for anything from anybody, but I know I have limits. This last year has proved so. I needed help on several levels. I asked and I received but only by those clostest - those two people. I used to think my family (not including my husband) would be there no matter what. I don't think that is true. I love my family and they are great, but they are family. If I need help - I don't intend to rely on them. Although my husband doesn't always help me in the way I want - I always know he is on my team and does the best he can. He wants whats best. He wants me happy and healthy - physically, emotionally, and financially. We both get mutual benefit. I'm happy - his needs are met. My family - motives are always questioned. They love me, but jealously, rivalry, motive, etc. get in the way.
I think I have more to work through on this topic, but the bottom line - I thank those two people from the bottom of my heart.
