So - my last post was the same day last year. Nuts. Been thinking about writing something on paper all day. What a year. This is how I started my last blog. Never thought I be writing this blog for this reason. I am so numb to everything. My rational brain is just fine - my emotional- not so fine. I have been thinking about all of the things I want to write about my Dad. Most of them, if not all of them are good. Now i'm wondering if I have selective memory, but why should it matter.
A part of me wants to crawl in a hole. The other part of me is saying what the hell is wrong with you....get over it - move on.....you have everything so quit your bitching and move the hell on. My other side says don't listen - mourn how you need to.... cause if not - it will cause you great pain later. So - here are some random thoughts to start me off....
My Dad
-Great
-a good role model
-strict but kind
-judgmental but proud
-not filtered but gentle
-taught grown men to hug one another
-loved children
-loved me
-a provider
-knew all about how stuff worked
-gave good and bad advice
-knew me
-proud of me
-gave hugs and kisses regularly
-defender of his family and specifically his wife
-proud
-stubborn
-never compromised
These are just a few things...
